Contradiction

Sometimes you can have two experiences in a day that contradict each other. One can make you feel on top of the world, you see all the possibilities and you want to go for it. The other makes you want to go back to crawl on mama’s lap and you feel like a failure. Today I experienced both these things.

Let me explain this. First the bad experience: I received two more rejection e-mails. Meaning that I have 13 rejections out of 20. I never had to experience such an awful thing before (Tes, I am only beginning to grasp how you must have felt).

The good experience – or the better news actually – is that I have numerous possibilities for which I am grateful. I went to an immigration advisor today and he showed me that I have various ways to obtain residency. He was honestly impressed by my working experience. He also kindly said: “I won’t say do not even try to get a job with your experience here in Nelson, but it certainly is not easy.” I can throw in a lot of money and they will help me during the job hunt. I even have the possibility to start my own company.

Wait a minute. That is an interesting thought. When I decided to move to New Zealand I was a bit hesitant of that idea. After some painful months of rejection however I feel different. In addition I stumbled upon this great article. It feels like this guy is one step ahead of me. Why should I feel like shit (sorry) when I have this great talent and ambition? Because I do not fit in a standard? All these ideas and opportunities are floating through my head. Can I become an entrepreneurial immigrant kiwi? Why not? They all are.